Last night I turned and saw Anubis watching me from Orion's spot, where he liked to lay to watch me get ready for work or play on the computer. I lost it. I ended up curled around Anubis, crying myself to sleep. Such a good puppy, he never moved, he just let Auntie cry and fall asleep.
I'm barely functioning most days. I'm shocked at how deeply I have felt the loss of my little old man, but he was my confidante, my buddy, my snugglebutt. How do people go on when they lose someone as close as a spouse? It's something I can't even begin to imagine or want to.
I haven't been able to eat much at all. I did manage lunch today, then ended up getting sick right afterwards. So I tried the ice cream route - got 1/4 pint in, at least. Maybe not the best way to get calories in, but I'll take it. Besides, the ice cream came from a great shop in the city and was very good.
Day by day.