Maybe it is because I realize just how fortunate I am that while getting them fixed was expensive as hell my brakes going out did not injure me or anyone else, and I am so very lucky it did not happen while I was braking from 70 mph. Whatever it is, I'm reflective.
Last night after rehearsal was great. We had dinner and then went to hang out at Lititz Springs Park. Just a handful of people relaxing and talking, watching bats swoop in to grab insects hovering just over the surface of the water.
I need more times like that. Where it's just "being" and not having to be or do something. I don't build enough time like that into my schedule, but I have to.
My schedule is full and will get even more so as classes start up again. I work. I act (yay!). I go to school 3/4 time. I plan on working on my 2nd dan (aiming eventually to become a Master, but one step at a time!).
Everything I am doing, I want to do and have wanted to do for a long time. These are the things that make me happy (and pay the bills - that makes me happy, too!).
I want to be so much more than what I am right now, and I'm having a lot of fun along the way, but I need to remember that every now and then, those pauses in the craziness are the things that keep us going and keep us centered.
There will be more time to watch the bats.